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Title Page

Contents

Copyright

Dedication

Prologue

Part One

Life Begins

Me. Dad. Trouble.

Funerals and Faggots and Words

Dad and Sam and Me

Fito

WFTD = Origin

Fights. Fists. Shoes.

Mima

The Story of Me (Me Trying to Explain Things to Me)

Photographs

Dad: WFTD = College

Mima and Sam

The Letter

WFTD = Fear

Sam

WFTD = Maybe

Unwritten Rules

Fito

Sam (and Me)

What If

Dad and Me and Silence

Sam

Part Two

Sometimes in the Night

Sam (and Her Mother)

Sam. Promises.

Me. And Dad. Talking.

The Story of Mima and Me

My Uncles and Aunts (and Cigarettes)

WFTD = Prayer

Me (and Prayer)

My Dad

WFTD = Nurture? Nature?

Me (in the Dark)

Me. And My Fists.

Sam

Me and Dad

Between Storms

Me. Fito. Friends.

Me and Sam

Me and Dad

Sylvia

Sam and Me and Death

Part Three

WFTD = Comfort

Dad and Lina (and Secrets)

Lipstick

Sam and Me and Something Called Home

Dad and Sylvia

Sam. Dad. Me. Home.

WFTD = Extinct

Me and Sam. And a Word Called Faith.

Sylvia. Goodbye.

River

Cigarettes

Sam (Moving In)

Behind

Other People’s Tragedies

Mima

Me and Sam (and Pawnshops)

Me and Sam and Maggie

Reading Faces

On the Road (to Mima’s)

WFTD = Tortillas

Sam. Me. The Future.

Lists = Future?

Marcos?

Part Four

(Dad) Things We Never Say (Me)

Me. Secrets.

Marcos? Hmm.

Cake

Me. Saturday Night. Sam.

Dad. At the Breakfast Table. Me and Sam.

Hangover

Mima. Cake.

Poetry. Poetry?

Dad. Marcos.

Dad (Marcos) Me

Me. Me? Who?

WFTD = Fists. Again?

Sam. Grief. Sylvia. Mima.

Running. On Empty. Fito.

Sam. Awesome.

Dad

Me. Sam. Us Doing This.

A Father Thing

My Dad, the Cat

Hanging Out

Me. Fito. Sam.

Sam. Eddie. Me.

Part Five

Sam. Learning to Talk.

Thanksgiving

Sam. Talk. Fito. Talk. Me. Talk.

Church

Not Fair. Not Fair?

Mima. Tired.

Mima

Leftovers. Lectures.

By Me

Friday

Marcos

Me. Dreams.

Sam. Dad. Me. Dad!

Sister

Mothers

Fito. Eighteen. Marcos. Adult?

(More) Shit Happens

Friends

Faggot. That Word Again.

Aftermath

Me. Dad.

Fito. Sam. Me.

Fito + Words = ?

Homework. Mothers.

Snow. Cold. Fito. Mima.

Rat

Mima. Me.

Part Six

Sam. Fierce. Yup.

Fito. Sam. Me. Texting.

Ashes

O, Christmas Tree, O, Christmas Tree

Dirt. Paper Bags. Candles.

Midnight Mass

Christmas

Dream

Home

New Year’s Eve

Happy New Year?

Night

Thursday. Two O’clock in the Morning.

Gone

Grief

Cemetery

Me. Alone. Not.

Dad. Grief. Marcos.

Dad. Me.

Going for Normal

Sam. Me. Fito.

Mom

Salvador

Epilogue

Acknowledgments

Singular Reads

About the Author

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